COMMITMENT

Commitment is a concept that many of us never fully understand.  To commit yourself completely to something or someone is one of the hardest tasks to complete.  Because its NOT easy.  It's NOT quick and it did I say it sure as hell is NOT EASY??   As a matter of fact, it's hard as hell.  It's slow as cold molasses and usually it hurts just as much as it gratifies.

I have the greatest ability to commit, recommit, over-commit, under-commit  and any other way you can describe the concept.  The problem is I give way to much to ungrateful ass people who either think I am unable to see the forest for the trees or maybe they are just so arrogant that they believe I am gullible as hell.  Whatever the issue, I can't blame them. It's all on me.  SOOOOOO.... people out in cyberspace, how do I fix me?  I change. sounds too simple I know, but that's all there is to it.

If I want different. I have to do different.  If I need something. I go get it.  I work towards it. 

Well cyberspace, I want different.  I am committing to MYSELF this time.  Screw all of the "nice guys',  the "good" men, the "friends in trouble" and  the "family members in a struggle".  Sounds pretty selfish, but for once in my life, I AM GOING TO BE SELFISH (if only for a little while).

Shutting down phone and some social media networking programs and focusing on introspective healing and loving me!  Maybe then I will choose better friends, better mates and make better decisions.